Friday, November 28, 2008

The Day After

I hope everyone had a nice Thanksgiving. I went to my dad's this holiday and we actually had a nice meal. No turkey, just ham, but I'm going to the store today and getting a turkey breast (thanks to my brother for that idea). Last year, we went out to eat and it was depressing and the food was not good. This year was a definite improvement in the food category and, most importantly, we have leftovers.

I haven't picked up my knitting since my move, but I managed to keep all my projects and stash in a fairly organized mess. After today, I'm hoping to spend one day this four-day weekend indulging in my favorite hobby.

I do a lot of thinking driving back and forth from my father's house. I can't believe that I'm almost 38 years old. I can't believe that I made it this far and didn't have children. Could I have messed up my life any more than I have?

Then I opened up all the windows, turned up my radio, and sang my voice out. That chased away the "poor me" pity party.

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Life In Short

I've downsized. Moved from a two-bedroom, two-and-one-half bath two story townhome to a one bedroom, one bath apartment. It's like moving from a mansion to a dorm room. I thought it would be cozy and quaint, but I'm feeling a bit out of sorts. I never thought I had a lot of "stuff" but I'm moving quite a few things into the discard and charity piles.

Good news is that I'm very close to work (as long as I continue to be employed there) and I will be saving money every month on rent, tolls, and gas.

I'm just a bit under-inspired.

That's all.

Saturday, November 15, 2008

How Far Would You Go For Chocolate?

Tonight we drove a hour to go a chocolate store that allows you to make your own chocolate treats - all types of toppings and molds and treats to be decorated, dipped, and designed with white, dark, and milk chocolate. My designs turned out to be pretty remedial. Towards the end I was just piling stuff on top of each other and drizzling chocolate all over it. I just quit being fancy. Needless to say, this place is not offering me a job decorating goodies.



Saturday, November 8, 2008

In What Direction Am I Headed?

First, I have to express my gratitude for every morning because I certainly need the "do-over" each new day provides.

Some anonymous person made sure I was notified that my ex-boyfriend just had a baby with his girlfriend. Am I upset about it? Yes, to the extent that I wish had a family. I don't need him anymore; leaving him three years ago was my survival instinct kicking in. But the news of his new child, something I had failed at during our time together, was difficult to process. Not much can come of me reliving past mistakes (as I have so many new ones to contemplate), so I force it to the back of my thoughts, where it only shows itself in my dreams.

I'm moving. To a smaller place much closer to my current job. I should be settled in by the end of the month. I'm determined to get back to knitting; I still feel so green and I believe my work reflects it. There is a yarn store called Sip N Knit near my new home, and they have a Tuesday night meeting where you can sit with other knitters. In fact, one of the women I work with is a knitter and we both agreed to do this together. Although she has a family and she very rarely has free time outside of work due to all their activities.

I went to JoAnn's yesterday evening and bought another book - I'm enthralled with the pictures (it's bound with a spiral binding so it lies flat). I also bought some new yarn, even though I don't have any particular project in mind.

I've tried to keep my Facebook page current. Do I really require a blog and a Facebook presence? Probably not. I'm pretty boring. Perhaps the blog could use more pictures? Facebook has enough little gadgets in it that just a few clicks and things are updated. The blog is harder because what is the likelihood that someone will continue to stop by unless the content is interesting.

I'll try.